November 20 (Expectation)
Acceptance, I have no choice, If it's meant to be It's meant to be, but if not accept the fact that sometimes things that we really dont want to happen happened and I think that is one of the most painful and saddest part of our life. Today, I feel empty, I want to be alone and cry but these play only on my mind because Im in school, I have role to do and set a side this feeling. I need to be a good student today, I need to pretend that everything is okay, that I am okay even it's not. I smiled but I'm hurt right now. It's hard to be a human, I want to be a dog or a cat or maybe a tree or maybe I want to be nothing, no feeling no hurt. I hate expectation, I did my best but my best wasn't good enough.